I always found performing magic is kind of awkward in most situations.
I used to perform on streets for random people. I just grabbed them and showed them some card tricks.
I used to perform at birthday parties for $$$.
I used to perform in local talent shows and many other events for fun and to practice new materials.
I don’t remember since when but I stopped performing because I realized that performing magic in most situations is kind of awkward and I am not good enough.
I also don’t like to ask strangers watch me perform anymore. It feels like I am invading into their everyday life and begging them to watch my tricks.
Performing for friends/family upon request is my least favorite thing. It is always uneasy for some reason. One guy asks me to do something and others are basically forced to watch me perform and sometimes they don’t even pay attention and shit…. uhhhhhhhh
Only thing I really enjoyed is performing on stage. The thing is, although materials I use during my performance are absolute killers, the show itself does not satisfy my needs. I want something greater than this. I roughly know what my show suppose to look like, yet my vision is too blurry for me to articulate.
I stopped doing shows because it does not meet my standard and it is a piece of crap.
The only time I allow myself to do something is when someone genuinely wants to see me do magic. One on one most of the time :/
Tell me about how you feel about this whole thing and how you overcome it in the comment section! I actually want to know other people’s thought process.